Haven't posted on here in a while and since for some stupid reason I'm awake, I decided I would. Someone called me bright and early and so now I can't go back to sleep. Thank you someone :P I really can't wait til the computer gets fixed, cuz this is just wierd. I have the internet set up through the ps3 so it's like having a HUGE computer screen. Which is cool cuz I can sit waaay over here nice and comfortable on the chair,but then again, the whole world can see what your typing. Not that it matters, just one of those things that annoy me when ppl don't mind their own business. :0 well since i was up until 2:30 cleaning and doing laundry, I will have to go finish the loads of laundry I have left. I have decided that I have a lot of clothes. But I'm definately not against having more. :P I may have a lot, but never too many. Off work today and tomorrow, and actually have plans. yay! Hopefully tomorrow is as fun as I'm anticipating it will be. Did that make sense? lol ok Goodbye.

IF and THEN

Just thought I would post about youth last night.
We all went to the Huanosto's house and just had some pizza and played a game called If and Then. I have been playing this game for a looooong time and sometimes its really interesting. But it's a blast. And you are definately sure to get some laughs out of it.
So the way it goes is each person playing has to write down as many ifs as they want to go with the thens. They have to match, so for example on one piece of paper you would write: IF I was a dog...
and then on the other: THEN I would bark. Idk. That's a stupid one but just for the sake of an explanation :D
Anyway. Once everyone is done, you have your IF pile and your THEN pile.
So now that they're all mixed up, they will not make one bit of sense. lol.
Sometimes they are just plain stupid and other times they are hilarious.
Let's see if I can remember one of the ones from last night.
BTW once you start the game, everyone gets a turn and one person reads the IF the next reads the THEN
I actually think this one ended up going together...
But it was
"IF Sis. Rita did a drive by..."
"THEN Papa would be the shooter."
I will try to remember some more but that's all I can think of for now
K so Myles reminded me of another one I thought was funny
and it said
"IF Liz married Scooter"
"THEN Quincy would run"
:P
I'll keep posting as I think of them

So, I enjoyed my 3 days off. Saturday, there was the parade, which was a blast. Sunday, of course church, although I must say I did not want to move at all that day, because I got the cold bug. And I was soooo sore! I felt so old. Then after am service, went to Winco to get some stuff for mole' (Thank you mama Alma :D) it was yummy! Then off to church again, awesome preaching! Then we had the cake walk and ended up raising $101.00 with only 7 cakes, which I didn't think was too bad. After the cake walk, we went to In & Out, and although I hate it, I had fun. But I didn't eat cuz I wasn't hungry. I take that back, I did eat some of Malea's fries ;) I did get a milkshake but had someone finish it off for me, because it was nasty... and too thick. So I had a Dr. Pepper :) And yesterday, I wasn't too sore when I woke up but decided I didn't want to be stuck inside all day so I went out. I was gone ALL DAY. I left at 11 something i think and didn't get home until 10 last night. And all that walking around made me extra sore this morning. Well I gotta finish getting ready for work. Only 5 hours today. But then again, that's Ross for you. CHEAP. lol
Bye!
Love ya'll

Guestbook

Just letting you all know I finally figured out how to put my guestbook up. Well, with the help of Naya :D

Anyway, Naya, for the background you just go to ultraguest... settings, then guestbook options... and under homepage url you put in the link that you want for whatever picture you choose. I just got mine from photobucket and do the direct link code.
Hope that helped :D
Love ya!

K, so I've commented on Sonia's & Naya's blogs and said it was time for bed, but here I am, posting another blog about absolutely nothing. lol. I really am not the person for blogs I guess, cuz I just hate posting these things. But better than writing my thoughts in a diary or journal. Since I like to type. But right now my hands are really cold. and I'm falling asleep typing this. lol. ANYWAY. Lately, things have been pretty crazy for me. I'm not going into details, just lots of things going on. So I guess that's also why I haven't been posting anything. Just not really up to it. And I feel so old! I know I may not be old but sure do feel like it. I'm always sore, and can never get enough sleep. I hate sleeping in because my day just feels like it's gone. I slept yesterday for almost 11 hours and did not want to get up. I know it's not too much sleep either. Because I cannot function without like 10 hours of sleep now. It's retarded! West Coast about killed me with my whole idk... 10 hours of sleep the WHOLE 3 days lol. I felt like I didn't sleep at all the whole time I was there. But O well. It was definately worth it. K well I really need to go to bed now. I'm only going to get about 8 hours of sleep and like I said, that ain't enough. So goodnite everyone. Sorry for the blabbing.

So, West Coast was awesome! I'm really hoping and praying that I will be able to get a room for next year as I didn't have a chance to while I was there. Just going to get my own room, I need all the space I can get with as many clothes as I bring it just gets so crowded. lol. Especially bathroom space. Definately need plenty of that. So in Jesus name I will get a room. That was probably the least amount of sleep I've had in a while, but it was soo very worth it. I definately had practice on hair. Got up at 5 both days just so I could make sure I had time to do my own and anyone else that needed help. I really wish these things were longer, the preaching was just so awesome, I didn't want it to end. I really enjoyed the singing as well. Always do. Well, I'm off to work. A whole 4 hours today. yeehaw. I need about 3 or 4 other jobs. lol. It's not too bad working at a clothing store, yes, I have bought a lot of clothes, but I needed some. So now, I can focus on saving money for some more much needed important things. :D I'm done blabbing now. Goodbye!

I'm so tired! And it's all Rowell's fault. lol. He kept me and Liz up until 4 in the morning because he wouldn't go home. We tried to go til 5 but we were all falling asleep. It was a lot of fun though. We really didn't do anything, just sit around and talk for almost 7 hours I think... Well, we were drawing too. sounds like fun, huh? lol. Probably not, but I had a blast. It's nice to just have people to talk to :D Well anyway, not too much more to say about that... if I think of anything to add then I will...

Here I am at liz's house as always... lol.we are getting ready 2 leave. I have 2 do my hair and then eat some mole' yum yum yum. My fav. Neway, Sonia, I promise I'm still going 2 post about youth but on here its a little difficult cuz I'm pretty slow at typing on this thing so once im used to it... so maybe later 2day lol. K I gotta get ready. Bye

so I haven't been posting anything lately, but I have my reasons. One, I've been at Liz's, Two, haven't been on the computer & Three, I'm not so sure anyone looks at it so its a waste of time to write something every single day. lol. So anyway, not much is new... still sick... it's been over a month now...but I'm starting to feel better, but this stupid cough needs to go away. I need some Goji Juice, cause I know I'll actually drink it. I ain't getting no nasty airborne. yuck. UMM... Other than that, just been working and spending time with Liz since it's just me and her now. I don't like to be at home cuz there's never anyone here so the less I have to be here the happier I am. I'm looking for a car still... so as soon as I get one, I need another job so that I can move out and get an apt. and also to save up for something that I'm not mentioning :P heehee. don't u hate when ppl do that? o well. get over it. Maybe someday you'll find out. O and my brother and his girlfriend are coming to church on Sunday morning so I'm excited about that. yay! :D well i gotta go to work. blah.

With my whole heart

Someday, I hope I can gain enough courage to sing this. This song really touched me the first time I heard it, and it still does. If I do things half-hearted, I'll get half-hearted results. If I do things whole-hearted, I'll get whole-hearted results.

1st Verse
Talk about peace
And talk about real joy
I'm talking 'bout things
I've never talked about before
There's two roads to go
But only one road for me
I've seen both sides
And I'm as sure as I can be
Lord I want you to know
That this double life is through
And everything ALL of me
I'm giving to you

Chorus
With my whole heart
I'm gonna love you
With my whole life
I'm gonna live it for you
Take my heart
Every secret part
Whole hearted
In love with you

Bridge
I'm not divided
In my heart anymore
Oh, it's you and only you
That I'm living for

Thoughts...

Isn't it wierd how people blame you for the decisions that other people make. And also how you can try your hardest to include someone and yet they say that you don't. The way things have been going lately, it's like... whoa. When did this all happen? And why so fast and all at the same time? Part of you says just run away from it, not to completely give up and walk away from God but just go somewhere where you don't have to deal with it all. But then there's that one thing that you just can't leave behind, that you love too much. God is just wanting to make you stronger and although its hard, you've just got to hold on with everything no matter what. It doesn't matter what anyone else is doing or the way anyone else is living. You just have to remember that God will never leave you or forsake you and you just have to "Keep On Keeping On!"

Youth...

was sooooo much fun tonight. All I can say is girls are better than boys :P lol. well no I'm gonna say more than that but just thought I would make sure that was said. lol... ANYWAY... Scavenger Hunt tonight.
Let me try and remember the list
quarter w/year of oldest person (sonia-1979)
penny w/year of youngest person (me-1988)
ribbon
paperclip
q-tip
shopping bag
picture of group next to fireman in Victoria Square
picture of group next to shout with proof taken @ walmart
Rowell's signature
a coaster
kid's menu
burger king crown
toilet seat cover
i think that's everything...
idk about everyone else but i had a blast.
afterwards we were supposed to meet the guys at Red Robin and they ended up getting there like 30 minutes after us
so anyway i dont feel like writing anymore.
I feel sick to my stomach. Hopefully I feel better 2mrw. cuz i gotta work. goodnite:D

Just thought I would share this...
I was thinking of a message I heard at On Course I think it was.
"If he can't say no then he's not your God"
So... why don't people get it?!?!
Ugh. It's just so frustrating.
Pastor just wants the best for us, and it's like people don't
even care what he has to say. If they loved him like they say they do
and they love God, then they'll obey him.
I don't even know what more to say because it's just so irritating.
So if I think of more to say... I'll add to it.

K, so I have more to add...
Tonight, Bro. White preached right along the lines of this same thing.
About second guessing God's anointed. When he gave the title, I remembered Pastor himself preaching the same thing on Sunday. Questioning authority.
So I'm just praying that it really sunk in. And that I don't ever question what God's anointed says myself :D

Can you pass the test?

Pastor Neumann August 24th, 2008
Sunday PM Preaching



"Can you pass the test?"

Scripture:

Genesis 37:4



1. Test of Persecution
Will you lose faith when the pressure is on, or will you hold on?

2. Test of Bitterness
Will you hold on to your resentment when you've been done wrong?

3. Test of Integrity
Will you obey when nobody is watching? Will you be loyal when trials
come & all odds are against you?

4.Complaint Test
How will you take it when you've been done wrong?

5. Selfishness Test
Will you only think about yourself? Somone always has a worse situation
than you do. WIll you think of someway to help other when you've been
done wrong? It's not all about you. It's about others.

6. Test of being forgotten
What will you do when nobody notices all your hard work? You've poured
your life into someone & they act as if you're non-existent.

*You'll never be disappointed if you have the mindset that your giving it
all for the kingdom of God.

7. Pride Test
If you get haughty, he will take your gift away. If you don't use your gift, he'll
take it away. You need to give God the glory in what he gives you and uses you
for.

DO IT ALL FOR THE GLORY OF GOD!

So Sonia texted me at I think 2 something this morning and said they were getting off early so we were going to the balloons. So I got up and WAS wide awake, as everyone else was tired. And now I'm soooooooo ready for bed. lol. I will definately sleep great tonight!!! I'm going to work off 2 hours of sleep. yay!I hope we're suuuuuper busy and that the day flies by!

Another boring stinkin Friday.
I've been cleaning since I got home from work.
and I'm going 2 work all day 2mrw.
Today wasn't the best day, but it could have been worse.
In a house full of people that are never around.
SOMEONE is a jerk. Just tryin to be a friend, you know?!?!
I'm so sick of this.
all of it.

The boys were really good the whole day. I'm really happy I finally was needed on my day off :D I had fun watchin them. They went in the pool for a little while, but didn't really swim, just jumped in and out a few times. And I'm still white. lol. We also made a "fort" or so I would call a tent, but w/e. lol. It wasn't anything special... it took me probly not even 5 minutes, but they liked it so that's all that mattered. well I'm on the phone but just thought I would put this up. Goodnight ppl :D

Yesterday was fun :D Pastor ended up cancelling night service so Me, Josh, Sonia, Dallas, Coco, Sis. Patsy, Tara & Jace went to eat at BJ'S. Once we were done, we were looking over our bill and Julia ended up covering the whole thing. So we left a nice big tip. :)
Anyway, after that, we went to get Liz and Sammy and they came over. And we had a party at Naya's :P lol. jk Naya. But it was fun. The boys definately kept us laughing. I put some music on from the keyboard and they did a little dance to it. All of them... It went from biggest to smallest. First was Josh then Sammy then Dallas and then Coco. It was too funny. I'm sure Sonia will be nice enough to put the video up of it so everyone can see. Right now I'm watching Dallas and Coco and so far so good. I woke up, took my shower, played Monopoly with Dallas and then Coco wanted to play church, so he led us in worship while listening to Revolution by Kirk Franklin. lol. That was fun. And then we went for a short walk, well I did. And they rode their bikes. And now we are here. Probably goin to go outside again later cuz Lord knows I need some sun. This white girl. lol :P I need to clean too. So Naya doesn't have to come home to a huge mess. That wouldn't be very nice of me. lol. K well I'm goin to get off here now, the boys want this and that so I'm outta here.

I meant to post this yesterday morning but I had to go work so I ended running out of time. Anyway, SONIA- just wanted to say Thank You and I can't say it enough. I don't ever want you to think that I'm not appreciative of everything you do for me and that it doesn't go unnoticed. :D Thanks for putting up with me :P (and Josh) lol.
Just felt like I should say that. There's so much more to say... like I said Thanks isn't enough, and I definately owe you.
SOOO...
Chuck e Cheese last night. It may be a kiddie place, but I had fun. Dakota still had coins when they started closing, and me and Josh kept getting them more :P let's see. probly about 10 bucks worth maybe more lol... there was some jumping game that Josh played and he figured out how to do it without jumping. all u had to do was lift your leg up each time so that u were "jumping" over the line when it came around. It was funny. guess u just had to be there. umm. and then he figured something out with the tickets too but we won't go there lol.
well i dont really feel like putting much more right now so i will most likely post something tomorrow.
I need to take my shower and go to sleep so I'm not a zombie for church in the morning, considering I have to sing. That's going to be interesting.
Goodbye

Went to the rib cook off last night. WAAAYYY too crowded! I wanted to get a sandwich but I wouldn't have enjoyed it because all the ppl around it was just way too frustrating. And I like to sit when I eat. At least I got to spend time with Josh, even though he was sick :(
ANYWAY.
Another day of work. I am soo tired. I'm falling asleep while I write this :P I think I'm going to eat & maybe I'll feel a little more awake. Yesterday was just a long day for me... I only worked 2-7 but I didn't get my break til after 6 so my feet were screaming from standing for 4 hours. My manager talked to me yesterday and said soon I won't be in customer service too much longer because she wants me to do other things and also start supervising the front of the store. Thank God!
Well I have much more that I want to say but so little time.
So I will later. Who knows when. I still have to finish up my trip lol.
Bye!

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Cant believe the hopes hes granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But well keep you close as always
It wont even seem youve gone
cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

Chorus:
And friends are friends forever
If the lords the lord of them
And a friend will not say never
cause the welcome will not end
Though its hard to let you go
In the fathers hands we know
That a lifetimes not too long to live as friends.

With the faith and love gods given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy youll live in
Is the strength that now you show

But well keep you close as always
It wont even seem youve gone
cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

A little ticklish, you think?
I could watch this over and over again. lol
BTW. He doesn't kno this is on here. Let's keep it that way.
Lol.
Please.

The banquet dinner for the independent study group was tonight. Food was great, along with the entertainment. First game they played... you drew a piece of paper out of a bowl. Some had questions, others had someone you had to act out and what they were doing. I'll give a couple examples. Naomi got one that said, "If you could compare Pastor with any cartoon character, who would it be?" I think Amber said Taz. lol. Pastor said, "Out of all them, a devil?!?" lol. That was funny. Sis. Sandra got one that asked, "What is the most embarrassing thing that has happened to you in church?" Amber yelled, "You farted!" lol... she ended up not answering, it got passed to Pastor. He said that it would have to be when he went on the platform and his zipper was down. So after that, Kailea & Country read some poems. Then Lisa did a skit, did a really awesome job (her beard fell off! Lol.) And I just had a brain fart so I don't know if they did anything else or not. lol... After it was pretty much over, I went outside cuz Josh called and I wanted to be able to hear better. :D
Lexi wanted to go with me so I told her to ask Mommy and she came out with her shoes on. She wanted to talk to Josh... it was a short conversation but I thought it was the cutest, funniest thing ever. Guess u just had to be there, but anyway... She asked me if it was him on the phone and I said yes. So I gave her the phone. She said hi, what are you doing & I miss you. Then she wanted to talk to him again. She was so anxious to say what it was she wanted to say. So she yells in the phone. "WHATEVER!" lol. It was so adorable. Oh I can't wait to have kids. Well I can but you know what I mean :D

So, I figured since I'm doing absolutely nothing right now I might as well post more about my trip. Saturday I had no plans but ended up going to Tri-cities again because my cousin Jessica needed shoes for volleyball. So we went to Famous Footwear, and she didn't see any there. I wish we wouldn't have been in such a hurry because I would have left with a few new pair of shoes lol. I don't know why I never checked out our stores here, but I will definately be shopping there from now on. When I told Josh a little while ago how many shoes I had he said "WHAT IN THE WORLD DO YOU NEED SO MANY SHOES FOR?" I told him I have to have a pair for almost every outfit. :P ANYWAY. Then we went to the mall. And I ended up with more clothes. 2 more shirts from Pacsun and sunglasses from Anchor Blue and a shirt from American Eagle. Which I have to return- if i can find the receipt. I thought it would fit fine, cuz it was small. But too small. I guess I'm going to have to start tryin on clothes, which I HATE. Usually I can just look at it and if it looks like it fits then I buy it. BUT NOooooooo lol. We didn't take too long because we had to be back in Hermiston by 5. So we were there for a couple hours. Then me and Jessica were super hungry so we went thru Taco Time. YUM! All I got was a bean and cheese burrito and a root beer. Best I've ever had lol. They actually put cheese in the burritos unlike most places. One thing I missed about Hermiston- they have CRUSHED ice lol. It's soo yummy! (I'm sure Naya agrees) Once we got to Umatilla, we stopped by my Aunt's house and grabbed some food she cooked and had to get some chairs, because we went to my Grandpa's house (my dad's dad) and had a bbq for his 67th bday. It was alright. I'm not really close to him because he favors. One of his gifts was Elvis karaoke... he's a HUGE Elvis fan. and actually sounds like him. So he did some singing for us. It was cute :P . I'm going to shutup now, and again I wrote a book. lol. IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT NAYA!!! LOL. It's ok though, I forgive you :D I'll put more for the last day and the trip back tomorrow.

The Real Meaning of Love

"Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong. It is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there.. you'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a right person for you. and don't rush things coz somewhere, somehow God is preparing somebody for you.


You can never be perfect. the person you love can never be perfect. but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers, and your love can be perfect through both of you. But, no relationship is complete without God, it's a bond not only between you and your loved one. but also with God..

Our relationships fail not because she & he's not the right person.. it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own let God do the work.. you may call it waiting time. but while you are waiting.. pray. Let God guide you always.. He knows better. No, He knows best for you

Love is not what you think it is. Sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last. Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life. Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined.. When we think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us. We say this phrase. You are the most wonderful gift from God I have ever received. After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say; You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life..!!!!. Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it?

Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears. Most of the time, these love promises like Forever, till death do us part, etc. and would end up. Never have i loved you and We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you! My love for you is DEAD!!!. Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degree She & He ain't the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come. But the big question anyone could not answer is :Is she & he the right one? and When is the right time? That made us stick to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit? A big YES is the answer. Don't be in hurry to get into the relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship. You're right, there is no such thing as perfect relationship, but there's compatible relationship that goes along with it. If you already knew that you are too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made. If you already knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell for the rest of your life. It's really hard to say goodbye though but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.

We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it's just pity. We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow makes us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood, it's just that we're too much dependent on them. We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and, our past. We are mistaken, it's just insecurity. But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy or beg. It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come. It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it can make you also the most miserable person in the whole galaxy. Always be guided by God's will in your life and you'll know who's God's Perfect Choice for you. Do not be conformed by the patterns of this world but, be transformed through the renewing of your mind, that you may know what is good and acceptable and perfect will of God."

Yay! I'm home :D Got here about 7:30 today. But anyway, I'll just start from where I left off. Which was... Thursday. Have no idea what I did lol. Gotta rewind back to Monday really quick. I went to see my Grandma Billie. (my dad's mom- also the only Grandma I have left) She's in a nursing home in Milton-Freewater, which is 1 hour away from Hermiston. I walked in the room and my Aunt Lori said, "Do you know who this is?" she looks at me and says, "Nooo?" My aunt said, "Bobby's daughter" And my Grandma got all excited and said, "SARAH!?!?!" It was too cute. It's really hard to see her the way she is, but all that mattered to me is that I got to see her. I honestly feel that if my family would have never left Hermiston, than my Grandma wouldn't be the way she is. That's just my opinion. ANYWAY. Now back to Friday. Went to Tri-cities with Kayla. We left Umatilla (which is where she lives... not far from Hermiston, only like 10 minutes) at 12:30 I think it was. First, we went to the mall. I bought a shirt at Pacsun. That was it. So after taking forever there, we went to eat at Red Robin. It was yummy, and that's probably the fastest I've ever got my food at a restaurant. Next was Burlington. I got a shirt there. Then off to Ross. O. MY. WORD. I'm not just saying this because I work at Ross, but it was the most disugsting store I have EVER seen. I don't think they ever recover. I think they just wait til the end of the night to do everything because the cashier asked me how long it takes us to clean our store at night, and the times I've closed, it takes about 30 minutes, 1 hour at the most. She told me that they stay sometimes til about 2 in the morning! THAT IS CRAZY! 5 stinkin hours!!! I know I will never shop at that Ross again. Unless they get a new manager that knows how to keep their store clean. I actually did get 3 shirts there though. And one for my brother. I'm surprised I could find anything. ANYWAY. After that we went to Michaels and I got 2 feathers for my hair. One pink and one black. I wanted more but that's all they had. After that we were done for the day. Oh yah, we stopped by McD's for ice cream. Then went back to Umatilla, and I think it was 7:30 when we got back. I will write more later I'm suuuuuuper tired. I should be in bed already but I was hungry. Goodbye

K, So i had a chance to get on here so I'll let you know how the trip is so far. It's day 3 and I want to go home. Yes, I'm very thankful that am able to visit family but this is Hermiston and well, there's not much to do. My brother Michael moved here a few weeks ago, and I want to spend time with him but he doesn't want to be around. My cousin Shandi would rather be with her friends. So, i've done some crying since I've been here. I miss you all so much. And I miss Josh too... I'm not goin to get all into that cuz I feel the water works coming on. So... Friday my cousin Kayla (Thank God for her!) is going to take me to Tri-cities and I am goin to go shopping and hopefully find something for Josh. Well again, I miss you all a lot and I love you all!
Love always
Sarah

I leave in less than an hour for Oregon :D I'm excited but there's one reason I'm not... and that's because I won't see Josh for 2 weeks, because he'll be at his Dad's when I get back :( And I would have been able to see him last night, but our plans were cancelled by someone, so that was upsetting. Anyway, I didn't buy a digital camera cuz I really didn't have the time as picky as I am. So, I will either get one when I get to Oregon or just get disposables and then get some up as soon as I can once I get back next week. Just wanted to let you all know that I'll miss you :D I know it's only going to be a week, but this is actually my first "vacation." So I will see you when I get back!
Love you!

Okay, so now I'm finally going to tell you about my day on Friday. Stephy called me and woke me up a little after 10 so I got ready. We didn't leave til idk probly 12... and then went to pick up Josh. After we picked him up, we went to Leela's so Stephy could look for some scrubs, and she found one out of all the ones they had. After she was done there, we went to DSW & of course Josh had to make a stop by the Guitar Center... They have lots of shoes but their all pretty ugly. I think I saw one cute pair. Then, it was off to Toys R us... tried to look for a present for Lexi and didn't find anything worth getting. Soo then we were all hungry so we went to the mall and of course i only eat Wetzels Pretzels :D and Josh and Stephy ate Taco Maker. I bought a shirt at Pacsun... actually I bought 2... a tank, it's lime green w/stripes and then i got like a thermal... its black and white with lime green and it has volcom written all over it. Spent waaaaaay more than I ever do for 2 shirts. Over 40 bucks. so yah... After we were done there, we went to Gottschalks and found absolutely nothing. And then went across the street to Marshalls and I got Josh a hoodie and a shirt and stephy got him some jeans and a shirt. So, we didn't end up going to Hot August Nights but had fun after all. And I got to spend loooootttttttttsssssssss of time with Josh so I was satisfied :D

TO ALL THE QUEERS

OH SOOOOOOOOOO TRUE! excuse some of the things it says, and if it offends you, than well don't come to my page... but yah if God made you a man, then be a man!!!

Got off the phone early with Josh cuz he was tired and I wanted to get this playlist done... so now it's done and I'm sooooooooo tired. Now gotta go take a shower . I'm so tired of being sick!!! Hopefully I'll get better soon... I really miss singing lol and I can't because my voice is pretty much gone. So everytime I try to sing, it's just scary. lol. Never realized how thankful I was for my voice until now :P So anyway, I can't wait til Friday. Gonna go to Hot August Nights with Josh & Steph :D ... I'll write more about that later. I need to get off here now
Goodnite

I really wish I was in bed right now, but I have to go to work. 9-5 yay. actually that's my favorite schedule, I just hope it's busy so the day will go by fast. Anyway, we had youth last night and even though everyone wasn't there it was fun:D It was me, Josh, Eric, Jordan & Myles... Naya came to pick me up from work and then Travis picked up all the boys. Well, we met him at Josh's house and watched him go in circles because he couldn't find where he lived. lol. So after that we went to Taco Bell to eat and then we went downtown. Even though I live so close, it had been almost a year since I'd went. We passed by this guy asking for change and Dallas says, "He's giving away change!" lol. That was cute. We got sprayed with some water (at least I hope it was) as we were walking. Travis said that someone was peeing off the building. lol I don't think the lady next to us thought that was too funny. But o well :P Sooooo then we went to Circus Circus and I like playing the games but didn't really feel like it so I just got 10 bucks in change and told the boys to win me something lol. They were trying to win a Batman for Josh but you had to get 6 wins in the game they were playing so I ended up with 2 little bears. So that was youth... I'm sure I could have added more in there but I have to go to work, so if you want to add something go ahead... but only if you were there... so Naya, if you think you should add something, add away. And what pictures would you like me to add? Cuz I am cameraless... I should be getting one here soon. I have old pictures but that's about it. I think the last time I took pictures at church was for graduation. K, I'm going now. Bye!

So it's been about a week or so since I wrote something... so I guess I'll come up with something to talk about. Just been working, still waiting for my background check, it's supposed to be coming this week, and once it does I'll start training for supervisor :D yay! and my manager said she would try her hardest to get me a raise, but she couldn't promise it... but I'm happy with whatever. Anyway... almost 2 weeks left til I go to Oregon :D can't wait!!! I hope it's fun :D I'm soooo glad Tara asked me to go with her! It means a lot to me, cuz I sure don't want to ride the dumb bus with ppl I don't even kno. And I am NOT getting on a plane. No way. So thank God for Tara :D Well I'm gonna go now... need 2 take my shower and wait for Josh to call :D so goodbye.

Just another blog...

Here I am, bored on a Friday night. I should clean but it's so hot in my bedroom that I'll probably pass out while I'm cleaning. I'm waiting for Josh to get home cuz he's going to call me... and then about 3 hours after that I'll be off the phone and I'll go to bed lol. maybe 4 or 5. Just kidding. Kinda. Anyway, we were going to go to the park tonight, but the ride situation didn't work out too well and neither did a chaperone. O well. Better luck next time. Plan ahead more. Sooooo... Yah. I bought some clothes today. Today, tomorrow and Sunday I get 40% off at work so yah. And yesterday I went to Mervyn's... don't ask why cuz I hate shopping there... I'm really cheap. lol. But I found a few cute things and I have to return one of them cuz I need to gain weight. If I could snap my fingers and weigh about 15 or 20 more pounds I would be satisfied. But oh well... Just keep tryin I guess. ANYWAY... last night was so much fun. Me, Steph, Josh, Sammy & Liz went to Farmer's Market cuz i wanted a funnel cake. We asked Rowell to go but he didn't want to (at the time) So, then we went over to the karaoke thing... magic on the mic or whatever its called and Liz signed up. Since they only had 3 people, they let her do it right away. Just had to pick out a song. She asked me to help her pick so I suggested "Jesus Take The Wheel" by Carrie Underwood. And she did awesome. I know I would have died. lol. Anyway, some girl named Kelsie won. I think that was her name. She did "Redneck Woman" by I don't kno who lol. But Liz got a lot of compliments. Maybe if she would have got on her knees she would have won lol. ANYWAY. After Farmer's Market, it was off to Burger King... Rowell had called me when we were at karaoke and I didn't hear it at first and kept tryin to call him back but no answer. I finally got a hold of him when we left and it turns out he ended up going and was looking for us. So, yah... we had some grub and then dropped off Liz then went to the gas station, and Josh had something on his watch and asked me to get it off and it came right off. lol. So after that we dropped off Josh and Sammy. And then me.
The End.
btw. that was longer than i planned.

GETTING OLDER

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D I need to go to bed... it's 2:12 am... I haven't stayed up this late in a while! But I'm pigging out on some junk food... and writing on this since i haven't in like a hundred years. Sooo... ummm Liz was the 1st to tell me Happy Birthday so she feels very special. And then Sonia. And that's all so far :D So I decided not to have a bday party this year. Just don't want to... well i will write more later good bye!!! o btw stephy said she told me happy bday too i forgot... forgive me:D o can't forget those who told me early... naya, taylor and a couple ppl at work... k bye

Haven't wrote in a while...
not much has gone on...
I did FINALLY get to go to Hermiston, though. But it wasn't for fun.
My Grandma Billie had a heart attack and was put into an induced coma... worst trip ever. But it was nice to finally see family after 10 years. My Grandma is currently doing much better... she actually slipped into an actual coma i think almost 2 weeks ago but she started responding to the doctors yesterday:D
So, other than that, just been tryin to get more hours in @ work so I can pay for mine and Tara's way to On Course... (can't wait!)
And today was a good day until somethin had to mess it up... And gettin the phone call @ work that upset me didn't help too much. Cuz I wanted to cry!!! But I spent time with my best friend to make me feel better :D

Blabbing

So, welcome to my boring page... I don't really have anything to say for my 1st blog. But I'm only posting one because I had nothing up yet. Soo... if you don't like listening to ppl blab, than please go away & don't read any further. ANYWAY, I FINALLY got to go back to work today. I was in a car accident 2 weeks ago today, and I was stuck in the stupid hospital for 2 days. I wouldn't call it "internal bleeding" but I did have little bleeding from my liver. They kept me for those 2 days so they could make sure that the bleeding didn't get any worse. But I was nice and sore for a few days. Especially the days at the hospital, cuz I couldn't exactly get up and just move around. I have a bruise on each leg, and I can't wait til they go away, cuz they are ugly. Not like anyone sees my legs, but I do, so that's all that matters. lol. I'm doing a lot better though. Thanks to God for a quick healing. :D Hmm... lets see... OH! One of my brothers left today for the Army :( I'm going to miss him! He's going to be gone for 6 months. So plz pray for him. That's pretty much all I have to say. Goodnight & God Bless!