Billie Jean Carman

I miss you already Grandma
I'm sorry I wasn't there to see you before you left us
I'm happy that you don't have to suffer anymore
And so thankful that you got to see my Dad
Thank you for being strong, Grandma :)
I will always remember everything about you
and of course I will always remember my favorite story
When Caleb was a baby and he got in trouble and you got after him
And I put my little hands on my little hips and said with my little attitude
"He's just a baby you know!!!"
:D
And also
I'm always going to eat what I always wanted you to make me
refried beans and cheese w/ La Victoria mild red sauce
I love you so much Grandma and you will always be in my heart

January 2nd, 1944- July 29th 2009

I am so irritated with my aunt right now!!! She asked me if I was going to go up to Oregon to see my Grandma before she passes...
Well yes, of course I would if I didn't live a million miles away and I wasn't working and money was falling out of the sky.
The whole point of me going to Oregon last August, was to see my Grandma. I had the opportunity to go then, so I took it. (and thank God for Tara who made that possible!)
Besides, it was heartbreaking to see her the way she was and she's even in a worse condition now. I don't want to remember her that way. I don't want to have to see her suffer.
Don't want the waterworks to start so I'm done for now.
So my day today...
I can actually for once say I am exhausted. I worked from 10:40-8:30 today. (I know, nothing compared to what a lot of people work, but when your not use to it... it's tiring) Plus I was sick the whole day, which made it worse. Being dizzy the whole day didn't help either. I am ready for bed! O so ready. Those pillows are screaming for me. So I'm going to sleep now. :) Goodnite all!

soooo

the fam bam is moving back to Good ole Hermiston.
Somewhere I never plan living again.
There is nothing there.
Maybe Portland though :)
Because there's more than just a walmart and a cow there.

Just proves...

how stupid they are.
Today, I went to walmart, and they thought my id was fake, so they rejected my purchase.
Keep in mind, Josh and I go there almost every day.
My head was about to blow off. And I wanted to blow the stupid guys head off. lol
I'm not that violent though, and trust me I tried to be nice.
Apparently there was a bubble on my id so it was fake.
I told him I've had the same id for 4 years. I was 17. Now I'm 21.
I'm sorry IDIOT, but I'm sure you didn't look the same 4 years ago!
Some do, but not everyone.
If I wasn't white, he would have HAPPILY taken my purchase. Goodness gracious!!!
uuuuuuuuuggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
lol

The people in Texas

are stupid. Most of them at least. They don't know how to drive. And when they see people walking, it's like they've never seen anyone use their legs before. HELLO. that's what they are for. Maybe if you got your fat lazy butt up and walked around you could lose some weight! lol. I'm sorry but it's just so annoying! Most of them don't speak english, and when they ask if you speak spanish and you tell them no, they still talk to you in spanish! If you haven't noticed, I am white. So I'm not going to speak spanish, because I don't live in Mexico. I know that probably sounds horrible and racist, but I am not racist. Just annoyed. Ok I think I'm done. For now.

Just a quick update...
My Grandma (my Dad's momma) isn't doing well at all. Doctors say she may not make it through the week. Thank God for my Uncle Dennis & Aunt Wendy who drove all the way from Arizona to go get my Mom & Dad.
I'm really happy they get to see each other. I think that's whats kept my Grandma is the fact that she's been waiting to have the opportunity to see my Dad one last time.
But my Dad is having a very hard time with it, as well as my Mom considering that she lost her Mom just almost 2 years ago. I talked to him just a little while ago, he said that he had to go because he was going to start crying again.
:(
Well I don't know what more to say.
So until next time...
:)

Another day :)

Hello everyone... I don't think I've posted in a while so I suppose I'll do so.
Other than working, haven't really been up to much.
Putting up with this heat, of course. It's been over 100 all week so far...
which isn't all that fun with the humidity.
Now, Josh didn't like Reno but he does miss it now because of how much he can't stand the heat here. Once winter comes around though he won't be complaining anymore. lol. I read that it doesn't snow here much but it gets below freezing. So I know I'll be wanting summer back once that cold weather comes around.
We had a busy day today... sorda... lol
We have our 40% discount this week so went shopping today. First we went to walmart because my stupid card doesn't work at Ross so I got some cash out... and the little park we walk through has a pond. The ducks there really seem to like us. It's always the same ducks. They will be on the other side of the park and they see us walking through so they get in the water and start swimming towards us. Then they get out and follow us til we cross the street to walmart. It's the funniest thing ever. lol. I do have a video but Josh told me he's tried to send video to the computer from his phone before and it didn't work so I will try and see if I can get it to work.
So, we didn't do too bad at Ross. Instead of spending 120 we spent 70 so we saved 50 bucks :)
After that, we had to choose where we wanted to eat and there are a lot of choices all around Ross.
McD's, Wendy's, Taco Bell, Burger King, Sonic, Arby's, Pizza Hut, Subway, Church's Chicken, Popeye's, ummmmmmmm KFC aaannnd... o Braum's (really good!!! kinda like Dairy Queen) and Sis. Cyndi's lol... no that's not what it's called but that's what Josh and I call it. It's actually just Cyndi's (Restaurant). They have really good food and excellent service. But we chose Subway because we wanted something that didn't have to be cooked so a sandwich was perfect :)
And then after that, back home it was. Josh had to go to work 2 hours later though. But at least it went by slow.
So now I'm here all alone :( and bored. Which is what I always am when he's not home. There is NOTHING TO DO!!! lol.
This is as good as it gets, and I hate staying on the computer for long cuz it's boring and I don't like sitting here forever. He won't be home for about 3 more hours. So I will probably sleep that way I will be wide awake when he gets home. Yaaay. lol
So that's the update of Sarah's life.

Happy Birthday to me :)

Wow. what a day. Been running around since 1 or 2 today. and now it's 10 and we are done! lol. First, went to Ross, found me a summer dress. Then went to the mall, ate and saw Year One...
So other than the dress, I got a blanket(blue and white zebra) because Josh always wants the air on and I get cold so I needed a me-sized blanket to keep me warm. :)
I got a new shirt also and slippers.
I had told Josh that the only other thing I wanted from him was something sentimental and thoughtful, so he drew me a picture :)
Which I have been bugging him about for a long time, because he can draw. It's a picture that says "I love you Sarah" and then has a teddy bear and a heart at the bottom that says around it "Josh & Sarah forever"
And I also am going to be getting the 3rd Twilight book which is Eclipse. I don't want the hardback though so I need to find a paperback. I finished the 2nd book (New Moon) a week or so ago... so I need to know what happens next lol. Those books are addicting! lol
Finally, I find some books that I actually enjoy. Stephenie Meyer is a good author :)
Anyway it's been a long day but I thought i'd post real quick. goodnite

mae mae

This is something Malea wrote about me and I just thought i would share it just because I miss her so very much. She would probably be the only other person I could count as a best friend other than Josh.
(excuse the nickname she gave me, she's retarded) lol...
MY BUTT CHUBS<3 Your nothing less then amazing.I hate that your gone from me. I never knew how hard it would be for me untill the day i seen you off. i cryed for hours.I miss you so much.I could not ask for a better sister. Sarah i know we have been thru everything but my love for you will never change. I wish i could have you back here so we could just sit & talk for hours=] We had some pretty good time's<3 Im so happy that you finally found that {one dude}& your happy=] He better not ever hurt you or i will kill no joke<3 Someday's i dont remember your gone & i look at the clock & think your just at work but then again your like 50,0000000 miles away from me. I dont think your ever going to know how much i really do miss you=[ Im crying while writing this

Wow, am I tired. Not that I have been working like crazy, but it does feel like it. Guess the heat just makes it feel more that way. Makes me more tired. In fact, I'm fixin to take a nap right after I'm done writing this :)
We don't work tomorrow, with it being my birthday and all :D I have been tryin to look for a cute summer dress or a birthday dress, because I'm sure we'll go out to a restaurant tomorrow night and I don't want to dress completely casual. I found a few, but my debit card is stupid and don't like to work at Ross so I have to get the cash out and get it tomorrow.
Work has been good, Josh and I are going to work open to close on the 4th so from 10-7 or whenever we're done cleaning up afterward. It's time-and-a-half so the extra money is always good. I was told today that our district manager said not to give any extra hours because all the other stores went over their payroll, but I talked to the manager who will be opening on Saturday and he said that he'll just say he called us in :) Our store is like 1500 in the green so we have extra payroll. So I am getting my hours! lol
Anyway I'm going to take a nap now :D