It's been a lonnnnggg week. Well, since last Tuesday. Josh and I have been staying over at Julia's because she went to Tennessee for a week and I don't want Gidget over here so it was easier to stay there rather than going back and forth to walk her. I wouldn't mind if she didn't shed so much or pee everywhere. If we didn't have carpet, then it wouldn't really be a big deal but we do, so yah. Not much else is going on except work as usual and it is draining me. I can't wait to get out of retail but for now it will have to do because a job is a job and I need mine. The last 4 days our server was down so I've been doing the cash office all manually not knowing if any registers were short or over. So I had to figure it all out in my head. Well I wrote it down but you know what I mean. No computer... Well today everything was up and running correctly so we found out how everything went... So my store manager was very pleased when he got the call from the help desk saying that we were over 8 dollars. Which is really good! YAY ME! lol I was relieved that I didn't mess up too bad :) Good thing I have some brains for math in there somewhere. Well just wanted to do a quick update about nothing important as usual. lol
Oh and we decided not to go to the fair, so no pictures :/ That was a hard decision for me because I love going out and doing fun things but it's just so expensive and I am a tight wad. lol Guess it's not really too much of a bad thing. And boy have I learned from previous events how to save money and whether or not its a good idea to spend on unnecessary things. But I know it drives Josh nuts sometimes. lol Like if he's thirsty and it's only a dollar I'll say no, don't think it's a good idea. lol. Bad habits I need to work on. Well thats all for now. Going to lay down although it's only 6 pm but I am sleeeppppy.

Does anybody hear her?

Been a little while since I've posted. I was washing the dishes earlier, while listening to my playlist and this song played. So I wanted to post a blog about it because this song reminds me a lot about myself.
There have been times in my life where I have felt like there was no one around.
No one to talk to, and there still are times that I feel like this. Although I was always around people that were "supposed" to be there for support, it just seemed like they didn't really care. They had no idea what I was going through, they didn't understand. I didn't always feel important enough. Or good enough, because well I was all alone. Didn't have much of a family at the time. Didn't really feel that I had any friends either. Too much gossip, and I don't care to be judged. Not one person has the right to judge any other and no one is perfect. We all have our faults.

Male or female, when one has not been shown love and affection, when one has not known the safety and comfort that should come from their parents or their own home, they will seek it out wherever they can get it-there is always false hope and poor and damaging choices are made when emotions are stirred- there is a temporary feeling of love and acceptance and when that goes away, there is a little less hope and it becomes a little harder to make good choices.

She is searching for shelter and affection but do we care - are we providing that for her or are we happy in our own comfort zones and glad that we are not her. Do we hear her heart, see her pain, do we even care. Are we willing to reach down to her and offer that to her (or him) or are we content to judge? Many judge him or her for their mistakes and weakness and close their ears to the cries for love. They reject him/her based on their actions.

Does anyone know how in the world you make this thing private?
Or block certain people?

Here I am, laying in bed and up a lot later than usual. Oh well, at least I dont have to be to work early :) Josh should be in bed because he has to work in the morning, but he's being a sweetheart and cleaning up the kitchen. And I didn't even have to ask! Lol
I don't want to sound like a hypocrite but I want to say that I am very thankful that Josh and I are okay after our nasty weather last week. Or the week before. I can't remember but I am just very thankful.
Hopefully sometime next year we will be able to get out of Texas and either move to Oregon or back to Reno. Who knows, maybe even Washington. Depends where we find good jobs, meaning Reno probably won't happen. I just can't deal with the weather here and neither one of us are willing to go through another ridiculously humid summer here. It's September and we still have 90-100 degree weather. I would have to say that the perfect weathe here would be 75-80 degrees. :)
I still need to get my dress for Kelly's wedding, I hope that it being a misses size that it will fit. Do they have 0 in misses? Lol and hopefully the bolero isn't poofy. At least the colors are pretty :) my favorite colors to wear together. I also need to get some hot sticks. Hopefully by then my hair will have grown A LOT!!!
Well I'm sleepy so I'm getting off here. Nite!

On a more positive note...
It's been a while since I updated! Just never feel like it, I guess.
Not really on the computer much because all Josh and I do is work work work.
Lol
That's just a part of growing up! Oh well. It gets the bills paid, keeps a roof over our heads, and food in our tummies (more in Josh's than mine) lol. I couldn't help but say that.
Anyway work has been pretty good lately, I'm just trying so hard not to get so annoyed. I think I have anger problems. Idk. I never got annoyed at the other store in Reno, but I guess it's just because the customers weren't so messy.
Not much has been going on, we don't really go out much since we're usually working. I think we are going to take Julia out to dinner tomorrow as a late birthday gift, but I don't know if she's made other plans since her boyfriend is in town.
I would have gotten her an actual gift, but she always says that she can get herself whatever she wants to gifts aren't really necessary...
But that isn't going to work for Christmas cuz I won't be able to help myself :)
I loveeee buying presents :)
The fair is coming up at the end of this month. The 25th, I believe and will end October 17th. I think we might end up going. Who knows... last year it rained most of the time so we didn't go til one of the last days. Its so expensive though. I'll have to see if they have a day that the entrance is free because that would save us about 30 bucks :)
well Im hungry so Im going to find something to grub on. Goodbye!

So wrong

Some people really work my nerves. People who think they are better than you.
Hey , people guess what, you are NOT perfect. You never have been and you NEVER
will be. Why do I put myself in these situations when I know I'm going to end up
getting hurt. Just like before. They never changed. They will continue to make people
feel like they are worthless and continue to look upon them as they are a piece of dirt. That everything others and I do is wrong. That others and I can do no right. That to me, is a very LOW person. You are NOT a good person. You may think you are but your not.
I know I'm not a good person either, but who are you to judge anyone else? I just can't begin to describe how wrong you really are. You ANNOY ME!!!

It's crazy how things happen that you would never expect. Or expect to happen so soon.
A friend of ours got news 2 days ago that his Mom passed away. She was only 54 and they don't know what happened. He has to wait for the results from the autopsy to find out what it was. We had him over for dinner tonight, although he didn't have an appetite but it was nice to have him over and give him some support. I haven't been through what he's going through but my Mom has so I've been talking to her and asking her advice on what I can say to help make him feel just even a little bit better. And being that me and Josh are probably the only friends he has that don't party, I thought having him here would be a lot better. He's going to Reno next week... (yes wierd we are from the same town. lol) Well actually, Fallon is where his Mom lived and his sister lives in Reno. If you all could please pray for him, his name is Justin. Thank you I appreciate it :)
Just want to share something really quick, that although my Mom and I have had our ups and downs, she knows I love her dearly and I don't know what I would do if I lost her. She's a great Mom and has put up with a lot from me and because of that, I am trying to make up for it. I know she doesn't expect it of me but I feel that I owe it to her. I call her everyday, more than once a day. To all you mama's out there, thank you for putting up with us brats!!! lol