Does anybody hear her?

Been a little while since I've posted. I was washing the dishes earlier, while listening to my playlist and this song played. So I wanted to post a blog about it because this song reminds me a lot about myself.
There have been times in my life where I have felt like there was no one around.
No one to talk to, and there still are times that I feel like this. Although I was always around people that were "supposed" to be there for support, it just seemed like they didn't really care. They had no idea what I was going through, they didn't understand. I didn't always feel important enough. Or good enough, because well I was all alone. Didn't have much of a family at the time. Didn't really feel that I had any friends either. Too much gossip, and I don't care to be judged. Not one person has the right to judge any other and no one is perfect. We all have our faults.

Male or female, when one has not been shown love and affection, when one has not known the safety and comfort that should come from their parents or their own home, they will seek it out wherever they can get it-there is always false hope and poor and damaging choices are made when emotions are stirred- there is a temporary feeling of love and acceptance and when that goes away, there is a little less hope and it becomes a little harder to make good choices.

She is searching for shelter and affection but do we care - are we providing that for her or are we happy in our own comfort zones and glad that we are not her. Do we hear her heart, see her pain, do we even care. Are we willing to reach down to her and offer that to her (or him) or are we content to judge? Many judge him or her for their mistakes and weakness and close their ears to the cries for love. They reject him/her based on their actions.

Does anyone know how in the world you make this thing private?
Or block certain people?

Here I am, laying in bed and up a lot later than usual. Oh well, at least I dont have to be to work early :) Josh should be in bed because he has to work in the morning, but he's being a sweetheart and cleaning up the kitchen. And I didn't even have to ask! Lol
I don't want to sound like a hypocrite but I want to say that I am very thankful that Josh and I are okay after our nasty weather last week. Or the week before. I can't remember but I am just very thankful.
Hopefully sometime next year we will be able to get out of Texas and either move to Oregon or back to Reno. Who knows, maybe even Washington. Depends where we find good jobs, meaning Reno probably won't happen. I just can't deal with the weather here and neither one of us are willing to go through another ridiculously humid summer here. It's September and we still have 90-100 degree weather. I would have to say that the perfect weathe here would be 75-80 degrees. :)
I still need to get my dress for Kelly's wedding, I hope that it being a misses size that it will fit. Do they have 0 in misses? Lol and hopefully the bolero isn't poofy. At least the colors are pretty :) my favorite colors to wear together. I also need to get some hot sticks. Hopefully by then my hair will have grown A LOT!!!
Well I'm sleepy so I'm getting off here. Nite!

On a more positive note...
It's been a while since I updated! Just never feel like it, I guess.
Not really on the computer much because all Josh and I do is work work work.
Lol
That's just a part of growing up! Oh well. It gets the bills paid, keeps a roof over our heads, and food in our tummies (more in Josh's than mine) lol. I couldn't help but say that.
Anyway work has been pretty good lately, I'm just trying so hard not to get so annoyed. I think I have anger problems. Idk. I never got annoyed at the other store in Reno, but I guess it's just because the customers weren't so messy.
Not much has been going on, we don't really go out much since we're usually working. I think we are going to take Julia out to dinner tomorrow as a late birthday gift, but I don't know if she's made other plans since her boyfriend is in town.
I would have gotten her an actual gift, but she always says that she can get herself whatever she wants to gifts aren't really necessary...
But that isn't going to work for Christmas cuz I won't be able to help myself :)
I loveeee buying presents :)
The fair is coming up at the end of this month. The 25th, I believe and will end October 17th. I think we might end up going. Who knows... last year it rained most of the time so we didn't go til one of the last days. Its so expensive though. I'll have to see if they have a day that the entrance is free because that would save us about 30 bucks :)
well Im hungry so Im going to find something to grub on. Goodbye!

So wrong

Some people really work my nerves. People who think they are better than you.
Hey , people guess what, you are NOT perfect. You never have been and you NEVER
will be. Why do I put myself in these situations when I know I'm going to end up
getting hurt. Just like before. They never changed. They will continue to make people
feel like they are worthless and continue to look upon them as they are a piece of dirt. That everything others and I do is wrong. That others and I can do no right. That to me, is a very LOW person. You are NOT a good person. You may think you are but your not.
I know I'm not a good person either, but who are you to judge anyone else? I just can't begin to describe how wrong you really are. You ANNOY ME!!!

It's crazy how things happen that you would never expect. Or expect to happen so soon.
A friend of ours got news 2 days ago that his Mom passed away. She was only 54 and they don't know what happened. He has to wait for the results from the autopsy to find out what it was. We had him over for dinner tonight, although he didn't have an appetite but it was nice to have him over and give him some support. I haven't been through what he's going through but my Mom has so I've been talking to her and asking her advice on what I can say to help make him feel just even a little bit better. And being that me and Josh are probably the only friends he has that don't party, I thought having him here would be a lot better. He's going to Reno next week... (yes wierd we are from the same town. lol) Well actually, Fallon is where his Mom lived and his sister lives in Reno. If you all could please pray for him, his name is Justin. Thank you I appreciate it :)
Just want to share something really quick, that although my Mom and I have had our ups and downs, she knows I love her dearly and I don't know what I would do if I lost her. She's a great Mom and has put up with a lot from me and because of that, I am trying to make up for it. I know she doesn't expect it of me but I feel that I owe it to her. I call her everyday, more than once a day. To all you mama's out there, thank you for putting up with us brats!!! lol

Guess it's about time for an update.
I've started probably about 5 of these things since I last blogged and just got tired of typing so I gave up lol.
Not that nothing has been going on, just haven't felt like posting anything :)
I had a wonderful birthday :)
Other than that, just been working of course.
Just want to mention, SONIA. That you are crazy. Texas heat is death. lol
It's makin me lose weight horribly and I can't wait to get out of this state.
I know complaining isn't good, but I really hate the fact that I'm losing weight.
It makes me just want to stay inside all day and do nothing.
But I have to suck it up and just be thankful that Josh and I can pay our own bills!
lol
We plan on taking a vaca to Reno next year so while we're there we can look for jobs.
I don't want to move back to Reno, but it would just be a temporary thing.
Then I will try to convince Josh to move to Portland maybe ;)
I DO NOT want to live in Hermiston, I hate that stupid town.
All they have is a walmart. Sure I'd be around my family, but I really don't want to be. We get along much better apart.
Or maybe even in Tri-cities, Washington. But then again, it's only 30 minutes away from the family. Probably too close. lol
I don't want anyone to think I despise my family. Don't get me wrong, I love them. I call my Mom more than once a day. But it's nice to get along with them so to stay apart is better. Haven't seen anyone in over a year. It's crazy.
I just really can't stand Texas anymore.
Everything is so far away. Too many disgusting bugs. Humidity is horrible!!! Josh and I keep our air on all night every night, because if we don't then we will probably drown in our sweat. Gross, I know. But true.
I think I've mentioned the fact that these people cannot drive.
And maybe 1% of them speak english.
SO if anyone ever plans on moving to Texas, don't. lol
I have never been this tired before everrr. I blame it on Texas. haha
Ok enough of Texas...
ummm
Oh we just had our 40% discount. Didn't really buy much, because there wasn't anything we really needed.
Josh got an iphone and he loves it so next it's my turn. My phone has been acting so retarded lately and it really works my nerves. I would keep the phone I have but it's time for a new one. Most of the time it cuts out and I can't hear what the other person is saying. I was talkin to Josh once and I could only hear him on speaker, but hardly even then. So he told me to turn it off and then back on and it worked... I guess I just need to get in the habit of turning it off every now and then. I really didn't want Josh to get an iphone because he has went through about 5 phones just in the year that we've lived here. So I worry but I'm sure he'll be careful. He got a blackberry not that long ago and as far as I know he never dropped it, but it did start acting up. It would randomly restart and his s and k keys had to be pounded on just so they would work.
Well I wrote quite a bit so I'll zip it.
I miss ya'll over there in Reno.
Hope all is well!