The banquet dinner for the independent study group was tonight. Food was great, along with the entertainment. First game they played... you drew a piece of paper out of a bowl. Some had questions, others had someone you had to act out and what they were doing. I'll give a couple examples. Naomi got one that said, "If you could compare Pastor with any cartoon character, who would it be?" I think Amber said Taz. lol. Pastor said, "Out of all them, a devil?!?" lol. That was funny. Sis. Sandra got one that asked, "What is the most embarrassing thing that has happened to you in church?" Amber yelled, "You farted!" lol... she ended up not answering, it got passed to Pastor. He said that it would have to be when he went on the platform and his zipper was down. So after that, Kailea & Country read some poems. Then Lisa did a skit, did a really awesome job (her beard fell off! Lol.) And I just had a brain fart so I don't know if they did anything else or not. lol... After it was pretty much over, I went outside cuz Josh called and I wanted to be able to hear better. :D
Lexi wanted to go with me so I told her to ask Mommy and she came out with her shoes on. She wanted to talk to Josh... it was a short conversation but I thought it was the cutest, funniest thing ever. Guess u just had to be there, but anyway... She asked me if it was him on the phone and I said yes. So I gave her the phone. She said hi, what are you doing & I miss you. Then she wanted to talk to him again. She was so anxious to say what it was she wanted to say. So she yells in the phone. "WHATEVER!" lol. It was so adorable. Oh I can't wait to have kids. Well I can but you know what I mean :D

So, I figured since I'm doing absolutely nothing right now I might as well post more about my trip. Saturday I had no plans but ended up going to Tri-cities again because my cousin Jessica needed shoes for volleyball. So we went to Famous Footwear, and she didn't see any there. I wish we wouldn't have been in such a hurry because I would have left with a few new pair of shoes lol. I don't know why I never checked out our stores here, but I will definately be shopping there from now on. When I told Josh a little while ago how many shoes I had he said "WHAT IN THE WORLD DO YOU NEED SO MANY SHOES FOR?" I told him I have to have a pair for almost every outfit. :P ANYWAY. Then we went to the mall. And I ended up with more clothes. 2 more shirts from Pacsun and sunglasses from Anchor Blue and a shirt from American Eagle. Which I have to return- if i can find the receipt. I thought it would fit fine, cuz it was small. But too small. I guess I'm going to have to start tryin on clothes, which I HATE. Usually I can just look at it and if it looks like it fits then I buy it. BUT NOooooooo lol. We didn't take too long because we had to be back in Hermiston by 5. So we were there for a couple hours. Then me and Jessica were super hungry so we went thru Taco Time. YUM! All I got was a bean and cheese burrito and a root beer. Best I've ever had lol. They actually put cheese in the burritos unlike most places. One thing I missed about Hermiston- they have CRUSHED ice lol. It's soo yummy! (I'm sure Naya agrees) Once we got to Umatilla, we stopped by my Aunt's house and grabbed some food she cooked and had to get some chairs, because we went to my Grandpa's house (my dad's dad) and had a bbq for his 67th bday. It was alright. I'm not really close to him because he favors. One of his gifts was Elvis karaoke... he's a HUGE Elvis fan. and actually sounds like him. So he did some singing for us. It was cute :P . I'm going to shutup now, and again I wrote a book. lol. IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT NAYA!!! LOL. It's ok though, I forgive you :D I'll put more for the last day and the trip back tomorrow.

The Real Meaning of Love

"Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong. It is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there.. you'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a right person for you. and don't rush things coz somewhere, somehow God is preparing somebody for you.


You can never be perfect. the person you love can never be perfect. but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers, and your love can be perfect through both of you. But, no relationship is complete without God, it's a bond not only between you and your loved one. but also with God..

Our relationships fail not because she & he's not the right person.. it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own let God do the work.. you may call it waiting time. but while you are waiting.. pray. Let God guide you always.. He knows better. No, He knows best for you

Love is not what you think it is. Sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last. Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life. Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined.. When we think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us. We say this phrase. You are the most wonderful gift from God I have ever received. After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say; You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life..!!!!. Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it?

Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears. Most of the time, these love promises like Forever, till death do us part, etc. and would end up. Never have i loved you and We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you! My love for you is DEAD!!!. Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degree She & He ain't the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come. But the big question anyone could not answer is :Is she & he the right one? and When is the right time? That made us stick to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit? A big YES is the answer. Don't be in hurry to get into the relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship. You're right, there is no such thing as perfect relationship, but there's compatible relationship that goes along with it. If you already knew that you are too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made. If you already knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell for the rest of your life. It's really hard to say goodbye though but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.

We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it's just pity. We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow makes us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood, it's just that we're too much dependent on them. We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and, our past. We are mistaken, it's just insecurity. But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy or beg. It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come. It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it can make you also the most miserable person in the whole galaxy. Always be guided by God's will in your life and you'll know who's God's Perfect Choice for you. Do not be conformed by the patterns of this world but, be transformed through the renewing of your mind, that you may know what is good and acceptable and perfect will of God."

Yay! I'm home :D Got here about 7:30 today. But anyway, I'll just start from where I left off. Which was... Thursday. Have no idea what I did lol. Gotta rewind back to Monday really quick. I went to see my Grandma Billie. (my dad's mom- also the only Grandma I have left) She's in a nursing home in Milton-Freewater, which is 1 hour away from Hermiston. I walked in the room and my Aunt Lori said, "Do you know who this is?" she looks at me and says, "Nooo?" My aunt said, "Bobby's daughter" And my Grandma got all excited and said, "SARAH!?!?!" It was too cute. It's really hard to see her the way she is, but all that mattered to me is that I got to see her. I honestly feel that if my family would have never left Hermiston, than my Grandma wouldn't be the way she is. That's just my opinion. ANYWAY. Now back to Friday. Went to Tri-cities with Kayla. We left Umatilla (which is where she lives... not far from Hermiston, only like 10 minutes) at 12:30 I think it was. First, we went to the mall. I bought a shirt at Pacsun. That was it. So after taking forever there, we went to eat at Red Robin. It was yummy, and that's probably the fastest I've ever got my food at a restaurant. Next was Burlington. I got a shirt there. Then off to Ross. O. MY. WORD. I'm not just saying this because I work at Ross, but it was the most disugsting store I have EVER seen. I don't think they ever recover. I think they just wait til the end of the night to do everything because the cashier asked me how long it takes us to clean our store at night, and the times I've closed, it takes about 30 minutes, 1 hour at the most. She told me that they stay sometimes til about 2 in the morning! THAT IS CRAZY! 5 stinkin hours!!! I know I will never shop at that Ross again. Unless they get a new manager that knows how to keep their store clean. I actually did get 3 shirts there though. And one for my brother. I'm surprised I could find anything. ANYWAY. After that we went to Michaels and I got 2 feathers for my hair. One pink and one black. I wanted more but that's all they had. After that we were done for the day. Oh yah, we stopped by McD's for ice cream. Then went back to Umatilla, and I think it was 7:30 when we got back. I will write more later I'm suuuuuuper tired. I should be in bed already but I was hungry. Goodbye

K, So i had a chance to get on here so I'll let you know how the trip is so far. It's day 3 and I want to go home. Yes, I'm very thankful that am able to visit family but this is Hermiston and well, there's not much to do. My brother Michael moved here a few weeks ago, and I want to spend time with him but he doesn't want to be around. My cousin Shandi would rather be with her friends. So, i've done some crying since I've been here. I miss you all so much. And I miss Josh too... I'm not goin to get all into that cuz I feel the water works coming on. So... Friday my cousin Kayla (Thank God for her!) is going to take me to Tri-cities and I am goin to go shopping and hopefully find something for Josh. Well again, I miss you all a lot and I love you all!
Love always
Sarah

I leave in less than an hour for Oregon :D I'm excited but there's one reason I'm not... and that's because I won't see Josh for 2 weeks, because he'll be at his Dad's when I get back :( And I would have been able to see him last night, but our plans were cancelled by someone, so that was upsetting. Anyway, I didn't buy a digital camera cuz I really didn't have the time as picky as I am. So, I will either get one when I get to Oregon or just get disposables and then get some up as soon as I can once I get back next week. Just wanted to let you all know that I'll miss you :D I know it's only going to be a week, but this is actually my first "vacation." So I will see you when I get back!
Love you!